dear baby

dear baby,

i wrote your brother a letter right before he was born and thought that you also deserve one.  hope you know that you are not loved any less because you are our 2nd baby.  you will be our last baby so we will treasure every moment and spoil you in a different way.

know that you are wanted, planned and loved even before you are born.  i look forward to meeting you and will not expect you to be like kuya maki.  you will be your own person and i will love you for that.

the doctor is already telling me that you will be bigger so hopefully i can push you out and have you naturally.  i wouldn't want to stay longer in the hospital and would want you home as soon as possible.  i have been praying regularly to keep you safe in my belly, during delivery and while out in the world.

you kick and move a lot more than kuya in my belly... i wonder if you will be more active and playful. who will you look like?  whose personality will you get?  i have images of you and kuya playing and hugging each other.  my greatest wish is for you to be best friends.  that's one reason why we decided to have you right away so the age gap won't be so big.  and no matter what others say about having a girl, i think having two boys will be perfect.  you will be brothers but also want you to be able to count on each other and love each other to the moon and back.

i can probably only take 2 months off and the thought of leaving you home while i go to work is awful but glad that my job will let me have 3-day weekends to bond with you.  hope i can produce enough breastmilk until you're 6 months.

having you will complete our family of four. papa and I can't wait to get our life started together. we can't wait to give you our unconditional love.  mama and papa are waiting... come soon.  kuya maki may not be happy at first to meet you but he'll come around once he gets older.  can't wait to meet you, my "bunso". 

love you lots,
mama